I’m Back, for good :D

Published April 22, 2014 by adventuresandthoughtbubbles

Hello all~

So I’ve been gone for a while, even though I promised to be back, like, 2 months ago! For that, I’m very very sorry </3

I’ve just been really emotionally wrecked. People turned their backs on me. Friendships were betrayed, family got messed up, etc. Basically, depression came back. -sigh- I will tell you guys about it in my next couple of posts. But right now, can I just say that hope is a bitch. Like it whispers “Just one more try..” in your ear, even though it knows that YOU JUST CANT DO IT AND IT WONT HAPPEN

Honestly you guys, I am struggling right now, and I guess I came back cause I realized that this is one of the best outlets I’ve ever had, and this is one of the best places that I’ve gotten support from. So please guys, I really need you right now. I’m completely and utterly shattered. I feel like I’m just ready to give up, you know? 

I know, some of you are thinking, “Oh she’s too young, she’s over reacting”, but guys, BECAUSE I am young, I dont have much experience with much, which is why stuff you guys find easy are hard for me, so please try to understand.

Soooo yea. UGH I MISSED YOU GUYS SO MUCH 

365 Days: Sliced Bread

Published January 29, 2014 by adventuresandthoughtbubbles

Interviewer: What do YOU think is the best thing ever made?

Me: Ummm. Cameras

Interviewer: Oh? And why is that?

Me: Well, a camera is a really good thing to have

Interviewer: I know that, but why is it a good thing to have?

Me: OHHHH, it’s a good thing to have because it makes you happy on your saddest days

Interviewer: How? Does it tell jokes? dum dum tsss

Me: No, cameras can’t talk, silly. They capture moments you want to remember. Things from the present that you can’t bring back once it’s passed already. Things that you’d smile about when you remember. A day out with friends, special occasions, a success. Anything, really.

Interviewer: Is there anything else that contests with a camera when it comes to ‘Best Thing Invented’?

Me: Yup. A voice recorder.

Interviewer: A voice recorder?

Me: Yeah, that’s what I said.

Interviewer: How can something so ancient be one of the best things made?

Me: I’ll tell you why. Before studios, Artist only had voice recorders to make their music with solid proof. Without voice recorders, the world wouldn’t have CD’s or iTunes, OR YOUTUBE. How would the world survive without voice recorders?

Interviewer: Oh wow

365 Days: Musical

Published January 26, 2014 by adventuresandthoughtbubbles

[I’m sorry I haven’t posted much this week, school’s been keeping me stressed and busy. I’ll get back to work :)]

Have I mentioned that music is practically my lifeline? I cannot even bring out the words to explain it. Let’s just say I’m in love with it

Music keeps me sane. I always have headphones and music. Anytime. Anywhere. I can’t live without it. It helps me think…I know that for most people it’s the other way around, but that’s me.

[I even have music playing now]

It’s one thing that’s meant for everybody. It’s a common denominator that brings people together. But it’s also beautiful how so many people can sing one song, but give it different meanings, two people sing a song and give it two opposite meanings. For example, a song about a boy who left. To one person, it could mean just that, but to the other it could be about letting something go. It runs around the same context, but there’s such a big difference with the emotions when it’s sung separately by those two people

So, how did I fall in love with music?

It was my first love! Music’s been playing in my house since forever. My parents and I found it as a way to bond. At night, we’d sing till morning, then have the radio playing all day.

I don’t know if this works with other people, but does music help you figure out just what you want to say to this person? Like, this song plays and there’s just suddenly this one person you want to sing it to. Or like, one song that could just about sum up how you’re feeling that day.

Sometimes, music is your best friend, it doesn’t need to go up to you and hug you to make you feel better, but it just understands you and knows how to clear your head, and make you smile again.

Music, I love you ❤

signing off

365 Days: I Got Skills

Published January 22, 2014 by adventuresandthoughtbubbles

You know what I’d really do willingly if I could? I would dance. Thing is, I can’t. If other people have two left feet, I’d probably have four.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I’m completely incapable of following choreography. It’s just that I get lost easily because all the steps look the same to me in a way. I can move, yes, I’m not stiff. But choreo is what makes a routine look good, and I just can’t follow for some reason. If I were to be the one to make the choreo, I would probably do okay, right? Wrong -_- still nothing.

We have this dance troupe in my school. They’re amazing. They’re synchronized, and the steps are just brilliant. I catch myself actually doing some of their steps sometimes. I do it once, twice, then I lose track of which comes first. It’s irritating…

Another thing I’d actually love to learn is draw. I make things out of scratch. But for some reason, I just can’t draw. It always looks the same. And I can never seem to make something original when I draw, since I would need something to base it off of.

You know those pictures online? The pictures of girls drawn in pencil. They seem so wistful in a way. YEAH. I really wanna draw something like those. The kind that looked cross with reality and anime. I really wanna learn how to draw! I just find people who can draw so amazing. Like, how do they even create such a beautiful thing with just pencil.

I guess I better start practicing

signing off

365 Days: Breaking The Law

Published January 20, 2014 by adventuresandthoughtbubbles

In my school, we’re not supposed to have our phones on during class time. Being the little rebel I am, I left it on. I always do, I’m not used to turning it off because it’s just something I don’t do. The only time my phone is off is when it’s completely drained, plus it makes it easier to play games if the lecture’s boring when it’s on 😄 Teachers don’t check anyway

One night I got bugged. You see, when you plug my phone in to charge, it doesn’t vibrate, so I put it on general. The next morning, I didn’t realize that I hadn’t set it back to silent. I realized it while I was talking to a friend but forgot to set it back -_-

So all was well until we were taking this biiiiig English test and suddenly Finn’s Baby Bun song starts blasting from my phone’s speakers. My eyes widened and I dropped my pen. I just knew I was in big trouble. Karma finally caught up with me.

I had to surrender my phone to my school’s High School Office for an entire week. I wouldn’t have been so upset about it if it weren’t that particular day. IT WAS FRIDAY!!!! Which meant I had to endure a weekend the next two days THEN endure another 5 days of boredom without my phone. That week was torture. I felt like I was going crazy. At random times in the day, I would feel my pocket and panic because my phone wasn’t there, then I’d remember it was confiscated. It was my most paranoid day of the school year. It was agonizingly slow too. Thank God the week after I could get my phone, it was Christmas break. The school even wrapped my phone up like a present.

I still don’t turn off my phone, but now I make sure that it’s on silent 😛

Thoughts on ‘Toot Your Horn’

Published January 19, 2014 by adventuresandthoughtbubbles

This week, I actually wasn’t able to type in advance for 365 Days. The other night, as I was typing out my “Toot Your Horn” post, I realized that it was REALLY hard. I was struggling to find things I liked about me.

I texted some of my friends and asked them what they liked about themselves too. The first reply came 30 minutes after I sent the question. It had only 4 things on it, so I asked why the reply took so long. Her answer: I really don’t know. It was so hard to think of something I liked about me.

The other replies came after, and I asked them what took so long, their answers were somewhat similar

That got me wondering… why is it so hard for some people to appreciate themselves?

The answer came to me when I recalled the previous quarter of school. We talked about commercials and ads in Media Class.

Basically, media contorts reality. It’s heavily edited in the visual aspect, to make people, things, and places look more attractive.

We start watching TV at around age 5-6, right? That’s when we see all the people, even cartoons, that we base our definition of ‘Pretty’ on. And then, you grow up, wanting to be like these people on TV. Be as pretty, tall, skinny. But you can’t look like them. Why? Because they aren’t completely real. They get filmed, then edited. They could look like frogs when they’re filmed, and look like J.Lo in the output.

This is honestly something most people my age don’t realize. Which is why they don’t eat lunch, wear makeup, burn their hair with irons, and wear heels.

So I promise from now onwards that I will not aim to look like those girls on TV. I will eat, I won’t use an iron, I will not wear makeup [unless needed] till I am 16, I will be healthy. I will not change my appearance for the pleasure of others. I will not compare myself to others. I will love myself

signing off